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Name: Amy
State: Ohio
Metro: Hamilton
Birthday: 6/24/1979
Gender: Female
Interests: Literature, poetry, music, hiking, camping, fishing, gardening (although my flowerbeds are in need of some serious help!) pets, my family and friends are the most important things in my life! Especially this special little "bean" in my belly
Expertise: Literature, Medical Assisting, PitBulls, Used to be the party girl..LOL..shopping, recovering from an eating disorder..
Occupation: Other
Industry: Government
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AIM:  BullyBreedLover
Member Since:
3/9/2005
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| Ok..thanks everyone for helping me to realize that I am not crazy...damn hormones LOL...
Well, I had another visit with the OB today..Went very well! The heartrate of the baby is 152. I am 18 weeks along now, and have felt the little guy ( I really want a boy) moving around a little bit  . The hubby is kinda jealous that he can't feel it on the outside yet..We find out the sex (boy boy boy!) in 2 weeks..I haven't gained as much weight as I thought I had, which was a pleasant surprise seeing as much as I eat LOL!
Other than that, classes are going really well. I can't believe this is the 4th week of classes already!! But I have to go and write up a test for a class tomorrow, and I am getting sleepy, so I better get it done! I hope that you are all doing well!! | | |
| Well, I had another Gyro for lunch today...ooops. And what makes it worse is that my ex-boyfriend works there...( I got my fries and drink for free!)the place I get them from is like a sports bar. I live in a college town, so, it's more of a bar LOL..Anyway. This was the guy that I was madly in love with during nearly a year that my husband (then just boyfriend) and I were split up. This guy was one in high school that was just untouchable..just super hot, yadda yadda yadda. Well, we had some mutual friends, and when he found out that I was single, he had a friend of mine hook us up on a date. WOW, amazing guy. We were absolutely inseparable from that minute on, for almost a year. But, I didn't like that he worked in the bar, and was always getting hit on, and so much attention from the college chicks..I hated that so much! He didn't want to quit, because the money was so good. So we fought about that, and as it got bad, thats when my now husband came back into the picture...talk about timing.... My husband, and Jason (the guy) are the only two men that I have ever said that I love you to...So anyway, even though we split up years ago, word has passed to me on several occasions that he still talks about me, and wishes that we were still together...And we used to attend classes together, and nothing was ever weird between us. I know this is going to sound terrible coming from a pregnant woman, but so many times I have wondered if he and I were actually supposed to end up together, if Jason was the one I was supposed to be with. My husband and I are ok, but we don't talk for hours like Jason and I used to, we don't go out and do all the fun things that he and I used to do. We fight about so much more than a job. Sometimes I feel like we are just friends with benefits ya know? Maybe it's just the hormones talking? UGH. I love my husband so much, but why haven't I ever stopped thinking about or even loving Jason, almost 3 years after the fact?? Why did I get the butterflies when I saw him today? Why, when he hugged me and touched my belly did I feel like an electric shock passed through me??? Why can't I just NOT feel anything for him. Why was I happy inside when he said he didn't have a girlfriend? What is wrong with me? I hope that you all don't think any less of me. I DO love my husband, and I am so excited about this baby..but that part of me still won't let go...Ugh, someone tell me that I am not crazy! | | |
|  And how long has it been since I have written an entry? Geez. I have been so busy with classes lately, trying to adjust to teaching....5 different classes. It's going really well though, I love it. I did tell them that I just found out that I am like 16 weeks pregnant..they are all very happy for me. I feel a lot better now that I told them. Besides, it is getting hard to hide this belly LOL. So this weekend, I have to write up some tests and homework for next week. Really sucks that I don't get paid for all this at home prep time. Anyways. I have been craving and eating some strange foods for me....I have been eating Gyros like crazy, and normally I can't stand them. They are so good though. I had one for dinner last night, and it is sounding pretty good for dinner tonight too LOL. AND Cold Stone Ice Cream...if you have never had it, it is the best ice cream ever. I get Birthday Cake remix..the ice cream tastes like cake batter, and it has fudge pieces in it and sprinkles...Damn, I know where I'm gonna have to go as soon as it opens today. Yup. Definitely Gyros again tonight. I don't know what it is, but damn that stuff is fantastic right now. Oh ya. I think I felt the baby moving, but I really can't tell..kinda felt like I had gas, but nothing ever came out LOL. It was doing it last night while I was laying on my side. The pillow that I was using was kinda pressed up against my belly, so who knows. Well, I'm going to run for now, and see how fast I can get these quizzes cranked out. Take care everyone. Sorry that I am such a slacker and have not been posting as much. | | |
| Wow. Easter weekend...and I get to work my last weekend at the Parks and Rec Dept...two egg hunts..one tonight at 8 for the older kids and one tomorrow morning..I am just really not in the mood..and the fact that it is pouring down rain right now doesn't help matters. We are going to have it as long as there is no thunder or lightening..Just what I really want to do..Stand outside in a muddy ballfield while it is pouring down ice cold rain. Sounds like a fantastic plan. UGH! I have to go in at 11:30 today to finish getting all the eggs divided into age groups, then head out to the ballfields to decorate...blah. I just want to stay home. Eat pizza and stay home. Hope that you are all doing well!!! | | |
| I just got back from my paperwork session LOL..Classes begin 4/4, which really isn't a lot of time to prepare, but they have a syllabus for the 4 classes that I am teaching..I just have to fufill those requirements in any way I chose...I have to go next week to get my books and syllabi and scrubs (which they provide!) and gradebooks etc. Then I have a training session all day on Sat 4/2..and then I start my classes 4/4. So quickly... The wages are excellent..double digits on the hour..32 hours a week. The pay is so good that I no longer need another part time job, and I will be making more teaching than I have ever made at any full time job!I will be able to save 2 months of wages for when the baby is born, And I will be able to afford to get insurance now..breathing a sigh of relief there! Ya, about the insurance...we didn't think that I was going to get pregnant on the first try, and of course that is what happened..I didn't have ins. but my hubby does, so we were just going to add me on to his, but to make a long story short....his boss (who is the one that oks insurance changes) was gone for 8 weeks on vacation, and what we had no idea of was that his vacation was during the time of "open enrollment" for the insurance...The ONLY time of the year when changes or add-ons can be made to a policy..so, you guessed it, I got royally screwed up the ass on that one...So, that is why I have no insurance right now, Whew..sorry about that, but I had some ?? on my comments about that. Yea, I am really happy that I didnt tell this new job about the pregnancy..and I agree..just because I am pregnant, that doesnt mean that I am suddenly incapable of working..Granted, I know that taking 6 weeks off is going to be an inconvenience, but I am coming back. And they cannot fire me for having a baby, so my job is secure..thank you Federal Govt for that. I still feel guilty that I have to be this way, but the employment world doesn't care about a pregnant woman. More soon..I am so sorry that my posts are soo long... | | |
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